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I stand mesmerized each time I see them spin.\u00a0Where is this unseen, whirling wind and how do the leaves always find it? My life is like these leaves. One minute gently floating and the next spinning out of control.<\/p>\n
As the autumn leaves dance and fall, my soul stirs and stills. Something in this season grants permission to enjoy the chaos I see. If anything else spilled from the sky, collected everywhere, hid the familiar, calamity would strike.<\/p>\n
But these beautiful, dead leaves bring peace and knowing. They fall chaotic, yes, but there is divine order in their very being. They remind that the earth is ushering in a deep sleep.<\/p>\n
A time of rest and restoration is on its way.<\/p>\n
In my life, too, I feel the chaos. The dreams I once held, the person I used to be, the masks I once wore are no more. They swirled away in a vortex of change. My soul is like the last leaf that clings to the tree. You know the one? I always notice those lone beauties. The others let go, set themselves free, and trust the divine wind to carry them.<\/p>\n
Oh how I want to do that. To trust God\u2019s control and let His whirling Spirit send me on a divine dance. I know He can. Why am I still here clinging?<\/p>\n
I close my eyes and breathe.\u00a0Letting go of the chaos in my mind requires a deep exhale and a shift.<\/p>\n
When it happens, my heart stills in wonder. It\u2019s not an audible voice. More like a deep knowing from within. And peace. Lots of peace.<\/p>\n
In Old Testament Bible days people literally heard the voice of God out loud. Then God spoke through the prophets. When the time was right, He spoke through His Son. And now He speaks within. As I watch the leaves spin, He speaks.<\/p>\n
What do you have for me today, Lord? I\u2019m listening. I\u2019ve set down my agenda and laid my fears at your feet. Help be open to your spirit. Please tell me.<\/p>\n
I listen. I close my eyes and hold a vision of Jesus in my mind. I set my pen on the paper and write what I hear Him saying to me.<\/p>\n
The messages that came from my pen were words of hope, complete opposite of the fearful voice that filled my head.<\/p>\n
\u201cYou are closer to healing than you think.
I will give you the strength you need to carry on.
It may not always be comfortable, but it will always be doable with me.
Do not doubt me or you will be like a wave tossed on the wind.
Let go and trust me. You will be healed.
Don\u2019t fight the fear, give it to me instead.
Rejoice always!\u201d<\/p>\n
Be Still,
Laura<\/p>\n