{"id":985,"date":"2015-11-17T19:16:43","date_gmt":"2015-11-18T01:16:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.seekingthestill.com\/?p=985"},"modified":"2020-06-26T11:26:19","modified_gmt":"2020-06-26T16:26:19","slug":"day-31-why-i-never-wrote-the-final-post-until-today","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/oldseekingthestill.com\/website_e02ce2c0\/day-31-why-i-never-wrote-the-final-post-until-today\/","title":{"rendered":"Day 31: Why I Never Wrote The Final Post Until Today"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Tonight’s\u00a0post serves a dual purpose. It is the final essay in 31 Days and also a Total Truth Tuesday. I know my final post was due\u00a0October 31. The idea, after all, was to write every day in October. I almost made it. But I didn’t.<\/p>\n

I could make excuses. I wasn’t feeling well. I was back into survival mode after lowering a dose of meds. I was…<\/p>\n

The truth is, I was scared. This 31 day experience began as an experiment and ended with..well, it ended with you, the reader. I wish I could find words to explain how it felt to have so many of you share your own stories. I wrote about me, and you gave me you. Each person who reached out gave me an incredible gift. And I didn’t want it to end.<\/p>\n

That was selfish of me, and I’m sorry. I now realize\u00a0that this space can continue to be a sacred place for us to meet and share. While I treasure the experience of our 31 days\u00a0together, the end of the series does not mean an end to “us.” In fact, I have a feeling that this is just the beginning.<\/p>\n

I recently read this sentence in an amazing book called The Dictionary of Biblical Imagery. The authors had this to say about trials. The purpose of a trial is to reveal what is genuine, to prove what is true and expose what is false. \u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

That is what I shall \u00a0continue to do in the space of Seeking The Still. My\u00a0life is\u00a0full of trials. Chaos, really. And in the midst of it all, there is the inexplicable still. I am learning it\u00a0is possible to\u00a0experience the divine right in the middle of the mess, and I want to share those moments with you. I seek to\u00a0expose what is genuine and true, while opening my hands to let go of the false. I do believe it will take a lifetime.<\/p>\n

Thank you for being part of this journey. It continues to unfold every day.<\/p>\n

Much Love,
\nL.<\/p>\n

\"31days\"<\/a>This series is not a tidy story of a fairy tale life. \u00a0It is\u00a0messy and truthful. \u00a0For 31 days, I will share pieces\u00a0of my journey, practical coping techniques for dealing with anxiety, spiritual insights,\u00a0emotional struggles, and a whole lot of other. \u00a0I will likely\u00a0\u00a0jump from here to there as the Spirit leads. \u00a0I invite you along\u00a0as\u00a0I share\u00a0my experience, my strength, and my hope. Thank you for being part of this journey with me. \u00a0Together, we shall seek the still.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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